Friday, November 11, 2011
I know I've been constantly apologizing on here about my silence. But to be honest it's been a hard month or so. School is not quite what I thought it would be, not saying anything solid about it because it is still new but right now it is not my favorite thing. And this whole moving business is very stressful. It's still happening and it's what I truly want, but all of my family is at some level of upsetness with me and that's hard for me. I think they know I'm not trying to hurt them but it is hard for me to upset everyone. I like to keep the peace, I'm not confrontational. Just knowing that my decision has upset my families has made it harder one me.
But when I look deep down into my heart I know it's what I want. I know I'm excited underneath the turmoil I'm feeling. While I am afraid it could backfire, like everyone thinks it will, I also know that if it works the way I want it to, that it could be the best thing I ever do. William and I truly love one another and it's time for us to be a real couple. Long distance is much harder than it seems, trust me. I wouldn't wish it on any couple. It's time for us to start a life together.
I've wanted to write this for so long but I know just admitting it will upset some people further. But truly this is my best way to let out how I feel and live my life. I've always found blogging to be so relaxing and it feels great to share my life with others while they share their lives with me. So thank you everyone that has given me kind words, I truly need it.
Love and Turtledoves,