I can't stop drawing lions!

So, for a little bit of a background, I don't usually draw very much. I have Moleskine sketch book but it's more for drawing out new Lovebot ideas. I've always wanted to be better at drawing but never put too much time into it. To be honest, if I really could draw well I'd probably become a tattoo artist. I don't think I'm that good though haha! So for now I just sit down every once and a while and can draw something pretty cute. This is one of those times.

I just can't stop drawing lions!

Love and Turtledoves,
Jacqueline

P.S. Terribly sorry for bad quality, I took them with my phone because I don't know how to use my scanner/I'm a little lazy. xoxo!

Monday Wishes: August 29, 2011

Well I know this is totally my bad but I guess I kept forgetting to do this little feature (haha my blog's only feature). This week I'm wanting:

Bright Red Hair
*photo*

Cheekbone dermal piercing
*photo from here*

This Horcrux necklace that reminds me sooo much of the lovely Laura Shane!

These lovely earrings

And this beautiful pink ivory wood ring.

My Monday has been kinda slow and crummy, hopefully all yours went better than mine.

Love and Turtledoves,
Jacqueline

What I want from college

The first week of college is over and it's not all everyone makes it out to be. I'm not really into the partying or "finding myself" college experience. I want to gain knowledge but I do not want to change who I am. I like who I am and I like the way I see the world. I like the things I strive for in life, even if they are different or old fashioned for someone my age.

I want college to show me what subjects I enjoy learning more about. So far I only know, from high school, what I don't like: not what I do like. I think I want to, eventually, major in something in the arts but I'm not sure what. I want to minor in business so I can understand how to run my own business someday, but I don't think I want a major in it. 

Overall I want to gain knowledge, meet interesting people, and become the person I want to be. A knowledgeable, loving, artsy young woman that strives to be happy in her own way.

Love and Turtledoves,
Jacqueline

Me as of late

Haven't been sleeping well, forever tired.

School started today and went well.

Creative inspiration is zippo.

All I want to do is lay around and play video games.

I can't believe summer is over.

I miss my cats.

Have I mentioned I'm tired?

Love and Turtledoves,
Jacqueline

T Minus five days...

In five days I start my (hopefully) four year trek towards a college degree. Like a true student I've already  changed one class before it even began. At least the ball has begun to roll... summer was hard this year. I had too much free time while William has no free time and it has left him tired and I was lonely. I couldn't keep my hands and mind busy enough to deal with being alone so often, at least now I'll have a lot to do.

I came home yesterday evening from Las Vegas. We've decided to try to stay positive when we have to part, since we know deep down it isn't forever. I'll be back in Vegas on the 15th of September... it just feels like a long ways away. Our week together, as always, was absolutely perfect. We got to strengthen and enliven our relationship again. I'm really hoping school will keep my mind occupied until we can be together again.

We played video games, watched a ton of Nip/Tuck, made zucchini bread, celebrated his 23rd birthday and our 8th month anniversary. So over all enjoyed one another's company. To be honest we did a lot of nothing, because we crave normalcy with one another. To just share our lives. We did go out on Sunday night to explore the strip a little, but someone (okay me....) got too tired and we went home around midnight. I love nothing more than sharing experiences with him.

Seriously look at that stunning man.

Only five more days...

Love and Turtledoves,
Jacqueline

Monday Wishes: August 8, 2011

To be honest, all I'm wishing for this week is to see my love again. I'm flying out to Vegas Thursday afternoon and I'll be spending time with William and his family until Tuesday. It's been a week or so over a month since we've been physically together and I'm getting really antsy. William is my best friend and I just get so tired of being away from him. 

So here's to young, long distance, love.

Love and Turtledoves,

Jacqueline

I'm done holding back

Today I realized something that I've never really thought about before. I usually think I'm a pretty strong person, but in all reality I'm a scaredy cat. 

I'm afraid to be myself because I've been rejected before. I'm afraid to love my boyfriend because of a former heartbreak. I'm afraid to stick up for myself just because it's to someone close. I'm afraid to make more Lovebots because they haven't been selling.

I'm pretty much afraid of everything.

All these things are so twisted in my mind that it's really outrageous I'm afraid of them. 

The people who have rejected me for who I am are just assholes. Pardon my french but that's just how it is. I've been rejected by close minded, over opinionated people and I let it get to my heart.

I'm afraid to love William and let William love me because of a former heartbreak. A heartbreak I didn't even cause and it actually helped me grow. I was rejected by someone I shouldn't even have been with, someone I don't even care about anymore and yet I am dumb enough to let it affect a beautiful budding relationship.

I'm afraid to stick up for myself because I'm so used to letting these people have their way. But in reality I'm an adult now and I'm allowed to do whatever I want and face my own. consequences. I'm allowed to tell them my life is none of their business and yet I don't.

As for the Lovebots, I can't believe I let selling get to me. I never even used to sew with the hopes of making a sale. I can't expect a real business to work if it relies solely my sales at one point in time. I need to remember to sew for me.

Now I suppose with this revelation it's time to grow and let things go. Let go the heartbreak, rejection, assholes, and bad sales. Time to be strong, confident (for once), and back to my old self.

Love and Turtledoves,
Jacqueline

P.S. I'm done pretending I don't love William. Done saying I care about him instead of I really fucking love him when I talk about him. I'm done holding myself back from what I want. I want to be passionate again. Passionate about William, my business, school, and even blogging. 

I'm done holding back.

Monday Wishes: August 1, 2011

There is only one item on this weeks list because it can't be compared to any other item.

No other shoe can compare to Jeffrey Campbell Litas.

I love the mint ones,

And the multi glitter ones,

And the pink ones.

Litas come in about a million different colors, 

but I am in love with the black black suede. 

Litas are probably the most beautiful shoes I've ever seen.

Love and Turtledoves,
Jacqueline